Sunday, July 21, 2013

21 Days of Hot Yoga - A Mind Battle

Session 14-15 - Forgetfull
I am sorry but I have been quite busy and have just been working back on what has been happening to me the past few days. I seriously do not remember what happen during these last two sessions. Talk about yoga brain right? Anyways will work on keeping up the posting for the next few days. I am pretty sure I did them since I have checks at the board haha

Session 16 - Personal Sorrow
My mind was elsewhere today. Been having some personal issues and it was just bothering me through my day. Its hard to breath out these kind of thing. I feel that I've overcome the physical part of this practice, my body can take the practice but its always so eye opening how much my mind is being the real leader if it will be a good or bad day. My mind chose to be a bad day because I got some issues bla bla bla. The thing about this is that I let it be that way, I let it overcome me and had it take control.

Session 17 - Kicking it Ninja Style
"Yesterday was crap to today has to be awesome" I told myself. I was up early for the 6am class cause I was asleep by 8:30pm the night before. Had lots of energy and I put it all out there today in the hot room. Was sweating and kicking my face off and I left a happy boy ready for work.

Session 18 - Keep Struggling
Woke up quite lazy today and was actually counting in my head the number of days I had before if I chose not to go class this early morning. It was probably in those split few minutes that I just said ok "lets do it little by little" get up first, have some bread, and find your way to get in the car and drive to the studio.

I was crazy lazy today cause maybe I'm just tired of it all right now. 18 days of yoga come on! Who wouldn't be right? But we are nearing the end here and I gotta just hold on a little more.

Session 19 - Anything else but Yoga
It's coming to a point that time becomes quite an issue for the last few practices. I begin to see how much of my time its really eating up and I do get these urges to defer practices because I want to do this or that. We are so near the end but it is still a struggle in a lot different ways.

Today's practice was strong, I haven't seen Frank for the past few days and I really enjoyed my practice with him today. It was exactly what my body was looking for. A strong fast hard practice :D

Session 20 - Barely Moving
I  felt stiff and weak today. I'm looking at it as a nutritional issue cause I ate some pretty nasty bacon this morning. I did not feel and strength today even though I was raring to go at the start of the class. I tried my best to stay in it but I felt like a car with nothing in the tank. The whole practice felt like a torture to be honest and I don't enjoy being and feeling this way.

After class I spoke with Frank about it and he pepped me up with how to give it my all these last few days of the challenge. His exact words were "you gotta kill yourself". I think he wants to see me REALLY push to the point where I discover something new about myself.

This whole 30 day challenge has been about me seeing up to where my body can go. I've honestly thought this was already it, but after speaking with Frank, he believes I can go even more. Gotta get my game face on for the next few days cause I'm ready to show him and myself what else I've got.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

14 Days of Hot Yoga at Bikram Yoga Alabang

Session 7 & 8 - Time Lapse
This was the day I knew I had to tough it out as much as I can. I did my practice at 6am had a meeting the whole day and did my second practice at 8pm. I remember going on autopilot by the 8pm class, I wasn't even thinking anymore. Postures were just happening one after the other, it's like I was just jumping through snippets of pictures in my mind. I was feeling dead by the time I came home, I had my dinner at 11pm and eventually dozed off.

This I think returns to what I was looking for in day 1. We're in the midst of it now and this is where I will see changes and where I will need to dig deep in searching for what my body can do. This has to be the most exciting part right?

Session 9 - A Whiff of Coolness
I'm beginning to do odd things in the hot room just to see what happens. Today I went to see what the big fuzz is about in being by the door during your practice. Let me tell your right now its COOOOLLDD there! It wasn't even open and my legs and mat were cool. In any case, I don't think its for me. Heck yeah its cold but I think its way much more fun ducking it out with the heat.

Anyways on to my practice, today was a good day in my book. I'm not sure if I'm just not doing it that hard anymore but the triangle pose has began to get more bearable for me. My heart rate isn't all over the place anymore. Let's see what my teacher says tonight.

My head to knee is another nice pose I've been happy to learn something new on. I've been focusing on the PULL phase of this posture which Frank was saying would be the best place to go since I can't really lock my leg yet when its pulled up. So I'm happy I can find something else to work on now.

Session 10 - Way Out of Wack
I was very blank before entering the hot room today. I felt no emotion, no feeling, just nothing.  In some sense my body just had to drag itself to yoga. I remember even yawning during the first few postures and had my mind everywhere. So as  I started, I already set my mind to fail.

Thus it was such a tasking 90 minutes. Bikram yoga is tough in itself, but doing it the way I did makes it a pain fest of its own. I constantly kept telling myself mentally to shake it off but the mindset I instilled at the start of the class was such a virus that it kept tugging me down.

More than anything the last few days have been very mental. I'm quite confident I can handle the daily workout since that's exactly what happens during triathlon trainings. But the mental aspect of this practice is really something. If there is something I will learn, it will definitely be mental toughness.

Session 11 - A Whisk of Motivation
The mind is a powerful tool. I came in today with soaring motivation as I just saw a new race I got so excited to train for and do. I just went on and rode with it this evening in the studio, and had a very strong practice. My mind brings my body to places where it simply amazes me. Yesterday I had one hell of crazy day and today it was just a total 180. I'm excited to learn more on this.

Session 12 - Breath
Ginger mentioned the other day that "The mind is the king of the body" and "The breath is the king of the mind" and thus here I was today working on breathing EVERY little pain, hardship, and drama I would be having in the hot room. I kept a calm face and focused on breathing in every little way that I can. It's amazing really with what sort of sorcery this can do for your practice.

Everyone always has those moments when they are holding a posture and are thinking to themselves "ooh this is tough, I can't hold it anymore. I'm slipping, ow ow ow" Yeah we've all been there. But just like what Frank once said "Don't think! It's painful to think. Focus on your breath instead" Trust me guys, try it out in your next practice and see how much of a change it can give to you

Session 13 - Pulling Through
I had such a good sleep this morning getting about 11hours in. I kept waking up mid sleep thinking "what time is it?", then I doze off again til I just realized it was already time for lunch. I felt very refreshed and lazy at the same time thinking I should just do a make up class another day. But I said to myself, what am I gonna do here just laying around all afternoon so I brought myself to class anyways.

At first feeling a little lazy I went through the postures and remembered how good my last few days were. So I snapped myself into gear and again just kept on breathing. I may not feel 100% today but heck lets just do the best I can and forget the rest. Some postures were tough while others didn't feel so bad.

So hey that's session 13 done and were almost half way! I'm feeling really strong in my practice physically and mentally so lets get it on and keep the ball rolling.

Monday, July 8, 2013

My first 7 days of the Bikram Yoga Alabang Challenge

Session #1 - I know I can!
First day has all the hype and excitement plus I know I'm coming in fresh, so I knew I wouldn't really be having too much of a tough day. Really weird though cause most people are shying away from the pain, I am came in today looking for it. I'm raring for that challenge that will make me tumble, fall and fail. Quite funny when I think I about it, but maybe failure these days are something I enjoy and accept cause that way I know I'm learning something and getting better.

Session #2&3 Going doubles
I'm having to sneak in a two yoga classes today since I had to miss yesterday for unforeseen circumstances. Had the 6am in the morning and I am really toughing it out on that triangle pose. Who the heck thought of it!?!? Anyways because of how totally uncool that posture makes me feel now I feel like I gotta get my revenge on it and knock it down haha Well, lets see!

On a good note though, my toe stand has become AWESOME (that's what I think anyways) Ginger was right when she pointed out that such a small adjustment makes a world of difference in your posture. In this case I just needed to change where I was looking and *tada* I was there looking all cool for everyone to see =D

During my second class I was in no man's land since this would be the first time I would be doing doubles. I had no idea how my body would be reacting and it was quite an experience. During my practice I began creeping in thoughts in my head like "oh crap, I still have how many days of this to go? Can I really do it or did I just get myself into this?" These are the exact sames words that come up too when I train for triathlons. Self-doubt is my mortal enemy and this is where I will be tested again. Thankfully I was able to pull through this second class and I would go as far to say that I had a better practice than this morning.

Session# 4 - Creeping Voices
I'm feeling a little tense having the idea in the back of my head I am missing one day as compared to the other challengers. I have this personality of mine to always have things I need to do done, before things tend to pile up.

So today was day 4 for me but day 5 for everyone else. I felt quite woozy today but strong in the other postures. I'm not really sure how my body was feeling but it wasn't that good today, that's for sure. Frankie mentioned in class today about taking it easy and maybe I do need to pace myself a little better. We are at the start of the challenge and I do need to keep it together and strong.

Voices have been creeping up again in my brain, shouting out doubts here and there. I tend to falter more today, so I need to block them out. I need more focus to keep my mind clear and just release everything with the breath. It actually really does work!

Anyways I've gotten through today and will be doing an afternoon practice tom.

Session #5 - Learning a lesson
This was that session that I felt lost from the start off. I'm not that sure if it's because of my lack of sleep, the food I ate, or my mindset. Things were not just clicking today. It felt disappointing at first seeing myself just whisk through the postures not even pushing but at the end of the day I still felt an appreciation to myself for trying. I felt thankful to my body and mind for giving it a try and working with what it had for the day.

Session # 6 - Forgetfulness
I remembered how bad I felt the day before I would like to come in today with a forgetful mind of what happen the day before. History is something to learn from but I having it dictate your fears and emotions would not do me any good. I kicked the thought out of my head and pushed on. Well it was good today. Feeling a little tired but it was good. Time to watch a movie now with my girlfriend!